The words I wish I could say

A feeling of sadness, that's what I see in you. Your smile makes me rough, and my words become stone. You say hello, and I blow you away. But in it all, this is what I wish I can say. I miss you, I love you, I wish I could be kinder. But I can't, so I don't, yet I know this isn't right. I am distant and silent, but I wish to be close and speak with you. You are my friend,one of my best friend, this is true. How have we let this relationship come to be this way? My mind hurts and the song plays the same. Yet, I hear the words and I feel betrayed. You are sweet and you are good, so I know I must be the fool. You are kind and gentle, that's why I know I am mental. All I want to say is, I couldn't let you get away. But sometimes I'm afraid. I don't want us to fade away from each other. I don't want you to vanish in thin air, something I couldn't bare. I know that I'll see you many more times, yet I hope that I won't commit the crime. The crime of keeping you at bay, the crime of telling you not to stay. Sometimes our hearts prevent us from feeling when it knows it might cause us some pain. I don't want that from stealing you and keeping you away. Pray for my heart, for these are the words that I wish I can say.